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My Non- Depressing Entry [08 Apr 2008|01:19am]
I've noticed that when I do post on here the entries are generally depressing. I want to stop that trend and brag about all the things I've got going for myself right now.

First off, we found out my dad has cancer [I know... not the best way to start off a non depressing post] It's called Non- Hodgkin Lymphoma. At first it was really hard, but we found out it's a very slow growing cancer and that it is VERY treatable with non aggressive treatment. All the prayers helped.

I registered for classes next fall. I got into every class I wanted to get into. Three history courses next semester will set me to graduate on time. I love having school all figured out. It makes life SO must easier. Oh, and I found a new roommate. Next year should be an interesting, Brittany free, year.

I got my camp counselor job back.. I have mixed emotions about this, but at least I'm making money. Plus, I'm pretty sure I got Connor a job working with me as well. I have mixed emotions about that as well, but at least he'll be making money too!

I GOT A NEW DOG!!!! After two years of having a lonely house my mom decided it was time to get a new dog. His name is Mickey, like the mouse, or like the baseball player.. which ever one you prefer. He is a Shih- Tzu/ Poodle mix. He's really fluffy, and he's really sweet, AND I love him!!! RIP Hawick.. You will never be replaced.

And lastly, I guess I'll dish about me and Connor, even though I feel like every time I do that I jinx myself in a way. Sometimes I think about how I felt the first time I met him. I got butterflies, no lie. And even now, when we see each other after weeks of not seeing each other, I get the same feeling. I feel like I'm pretty lucky. Not everyone meets a person who can do that, and even more so, people do not get the opportunity to share a serious relationship with that person. I'm just really happy. It's been almost a year and a half now. Things aren't perfect, but we're happy.

I don't mean to sound proud or boastful, but I am happy. I guess I should knock on wood.

Summer, I love you... come sooner???
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[16 Jan 2008|05:44pm]
I begin my fourth semester of college Monday.
Martin Luther King Jr. Day...
Assholes.
I'm excited.
But scared.
College is flying by.
I love it.
But hate it at the same time.
I love the people.
I feel like I've found life long friends.

I'm just scared of the 'real world'.
How the hell am I going to support myself?
How am I going to find someone who can support me?
How are WE supposed to support ourselves?
Kids?!?!?!
JOBS?!?!!
MONEY!?!?!

I think about these things all the time now.
It's not what I should be thinking about.
But I do.
Oh well.

I'm just going to try and enjoy this semester.
My friends.
My classes.
My love.
All of it.

I will try my best.
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[15 Jul 2007|08:54pm]
Umm, went to the beach randomly Friday night with Connor. It was fun to do something like that randomly. Saturday the beach was great. The water was kinda cold but you got used to it. And it wasn't too too hot because of the breeze coming off the bay. I really kind of love my boy. This weekend was really good for us. I don't think I could be more happy.

Hershey Park next Saturday?!?!?! I think YES!!!!
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[13 Jul 2007|05:19pm]
I have nothing of importance to say. I've been ubberly busy lately. My job just kind of consumes my life, but I'm okay with that. I pray to God I wasn't half as bratty as some of these little kids are. Like today there was a camp for mentally challenged kids at the park and one of the kids from my camp called one of the retarded kids stupid. It was sad.

Other than my job, nothing exciting to talk of. I saw the new Harry Potter movie. It was quite good. I think Connor and his friend Dan wanna go to Six Flags tomorrow because Dan can get cheap tickets there, but I don't know if I actually see that happening. It would be fun though, minus the ridiculous lines and disgusting heat. We'll have to see.

No plans for this Friday the 13th. Lucky me!!!
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[17 Jun 2007|12:28pm]
I start my job tomorrow for real.
Time for gross little kids all summer.
Can't wait!!!

Friday night Connor and I got into the biggest fight ever and we basically broke up for about 9 hours. It was upsetting to say the least. We've been going through a rough spot lately but I think we're finally making our way out of it.. Knock on wood.

Lastnight was Connor's graduation party. I got entirely too drunk and basically made an ass of myself but so did everyone else so it's okay. I feel like absolute poop today though. And lastnight was a first for me as well as him... that's all I'll say about that.
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[02 Jun 2007|10:53am]
I absolutely HATE that Connor is going to senior week.
He just came to say goodbye to me.
I started to cry.
I don't want to lose him again.
I can tell I won't be sleeping a lot this week.
I can tell I'll be crying a few times this week.
This week is going to suck.
It's going to suck.
It's going to suck.




Lets get drunk!!!!!!
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[31 May 2007|09:18am]
So lastnight was rough.
I'm glad we got through it though.
I love him.


The End.
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[09 May 2007|11:16pm]
Tomorrow at 1 o'clock pm eastern standard time I will officially no longer be a college freshman. I will have completed my first full year of college. It feels good. I never thought I could do it when I first got here, but I have survived. I mostly just survived the times when my roommate gets drunk and either tries to molest me and my friends, or my roommate gets drunk and brings dudes back to my room at four in the morning... which ever, I have survived.

This summer should be interesting. I got a job as a camp counselor... I'm not really sure how that will work out, but it's money, and everyone should know I'm all about the ben-ja-minzz. I hate kids but they will give me a good tan and hopefully keep me in shape.

And now I can finally spend some well needed time with my friends. I feel like a douche.
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SOOOOOO [26 Apr 2007|04:52pm]
Brand New last night was breath takingly amazing!!! It was a nice show. You could tell all the bands that played really had a lot of respect for one another and what not. I like that. By the last song on Brand New's set there were about twenty-five people up on stage just playing their instruments and going crazy.
.. That was right about the time when I was being punched in the arm by some faggot asses. I don't understand why guys come to shows and get into fights, because there's always those innocent by standers who get punched accidentally. Thank god Lindsey Crew was there to protect me. She's my personal bodyguard...
Just, an amazing show. I kinda feel bad for the poor little dude that was standing in front of me though. My crotch was totally rubbing up against his ass the whole night. I think he liked it though... I know I did.

One more week of real school, then finals. I found out yesterday I have a 68 in Spanish. I think I'm kind of fucked royally.. OH WELLLL!!! I can honestly say I don't care anymore.




Ahhhhhh how I want summerrrrrrr!!!
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[18 Apr 2007|02:28pm]
I haven't had a good night's sleep this whole week. First off I keep having these reoccurring dreams about my dad dieing. My father and I don't have the best relationship, plus he's getting older and he's in horrible condition. It just freaks me out. I don't want anything to happen to him and us not be alright with eachother. It would bother me for the rest of my life I think.
Then the whole Virginia Tech thing really freaked me out. I'm still quite upset about the whole thing. I cannot even imagine being in class and have some crazy person come in and open fire. I mean, I already don't enjoy going to class, but now this just adds to my hatred. And I know the pobability of that happening at my little school is slim, it's still scary. My heart goes out to those innocent people who lost their lives Monday, and to the guy that did the whole thing.
But besides all that heavy stuff, I've been thinking a lot about prom. I guess I shouldn't be worrying about it but I am. I guess it's just excitement. Sallies senior prom... it's kind of a big deal. I sitll have to get MY DRESS, make hair appointments, nail appointments [if anyone wants to come with me, that would be super], make up appointments, find SHOES, jewelery. As Mr. Bobby Ristow once pondered, What would happen to the world if there was no prom????

Timberland's new CD is tight. I'm not gonna lie, I like it.. especially the song with FallOutBoy.

Brand New next week. Yes please!!! Say Anything two weeks from today. YESSS!!!
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It's been a while... [15 Apr 2007|04:14pm]
Don't worry Livejournal. I still love you.

School is almost over for the year. Thank sweet baby Jesus.

So now let me rant about how much I hate my roommate...
I cannot stand Brittany. I hate who she's become. She's disgusting. Spring break definitely changed my views on her a lot. She has absolutely no repsect for herself or her friends. She hooked up with Kate's brother for fuck's sake.. Not to mention tried, and semi succeeded in, making out with me, Kate, and Jenna. The bitch shit her pants without knowing it. You cannot tell me that geting that drunk is ever okay. I mean, yeah I got shit faced too. I threw my life up the next day but I had fun and didn't try to make out with anyone, and I kept my shit in the toilet, not in my pants!!! And now she hangs out with kids who blow up goose eggs in microwaves for fun. I'm not animal rights activist or anything but I know that killing animals is wrong, and that most serial killers start their killing by killing animals.. That's all I'm saying. She was better off being miserable with Ben. I hate to say it, but it's true.
Okay that was my rant on how much I don't like my roommate.

In other news Connor's mom hates me because I'm not a skinny blonde chick. Apparently I'm not good enough for Connor if I'm not a skank. Not saying that all skinny blonde girls are skanks, but you understand. I mean, to my knoledge, I've never had a middle aged lady hate me because of the way I look. I mean, hate me for being a bitch or something, not because I'm not what you want me to look like. I actually cried about it Friday night!! A fifty year old woman made me cry!!!! You see, Friday evening I went to Connor's rugby game. It was about 30 degrees outside and windy as hell, but I stood my ass on that sideline for an hour and a half.
..ill finish this later...
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[20 Feb 2007|10:20pm]
I have basically nothing to write about.
Things at school are weird.
Kate is always hanging out with her new boo.
Brittany and Ben are constantly fighting.
Brittany and I aren't getting along anymore.
...Because of Ben.
It's pretty lame actually.
My work load has gone up dramatically.
I am SO glad that this semester is almost over with.
Spring break is just what I need.
I'm not going to write about how good Connor and I are.
I feel like I'll jinx it if I do that.
But we are pretty awesome.
I have to go to the woman doctor Friday.
I'm not looking too forward to it.
I have to get a shot too.
Score!!!

Anywhoooo. Peace out bitchs.
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Holy shit. [07 Feb 2007|02:15pm]
Hold the fuck up.
I know this is like ancient history.
But.
I was just reading over old journal entries.
I really hated when Connor went out with Lindsay.
I mean, that REALLY makes me mad.
To this day.
I bring it up all the time with him just to let him know that he's still not forgiven.
I think he kind of deserves that though.
Actually, I know he deserves that.
He knows he deserves it too.
I'm like shaking right now.
The thought of him doing that to me now makes me want to die.
We're doing so well lately.
The thought of him doing that to me.
I feel pysically sick to my stomach.
This time is for real.
The thought of her touching him in any way shape or form makes me want to kill myself.
Literally.

I love him so much.
This time IS different.
I trust him now more than ever.
He's proven to me that I can trust him again.
It only took him like a year.

I love him.
I love him.
I love him.

I hate her.
I hate her.
I hate her.
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[07 Feb 2007|11:50am]
School is really kicking my ass this week. It seems like I have SO much work to do in so little time. Actually the only thing I'm stressing out about is this dumb English paper. The dumb bitch is making us research our research.. then making us writing about researching our research. I'm so fed up with that stupid class. It makes me so god damn mad. I could rant about it for hours. The teacher is a stupid twat head and I cannot stand her and her awkward body!!asdfghjkl!@#$%^&*

Anywayz..

If anyone wants to do something Friday, shout me a holler for sho.
My parents are going away for a whole week on Saturday.
HVT/Sallies wrestling matches make me happy in my pants.
Connor spending the night on Saturday also makes me happy in my pants.
And Lindsey and Amanda meeting all my cool friends up at school makes me happy in my pants.

Basically this weekend I'm going to have to change my pants a lot because I'm going to be SO happy the whole time.
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[02 Feb 2007|10:40am]
Not having class on Friday is amazing!

I just woke up from the weirdest dream. My dad and I were driving into my old office so that I could talk to my boss about getting a new job. Well my office has somehow morphed into arcade/restaurent/department store/shoes store. There were hundreds of people and I was trying to find this one girl I worked with. But I finally just gave up because my dad had been waiting out in the car. Well as we're driving back we're driving down this rural road with this huge fielt next to it and my dad see's these two dogs go after this squirrel. So he stops the car, doesn't even bother pulling off to the side, get's out and starts running as fast as he can, like he's a dog or something. Now, my dad is kind of HUGE so I'm sitting there like OMFG he's going to hurt himself OMFG how am I supposed to get help if he hurts himself? And sure enough as soon as he stopped running he's like, 'Ah, my knees.', and he collasped. Then I start freaking out and crying. I still don't remember what exactly happened at the end. My dad pissed me off though, that's all I know.

I hate dreaming!!!

My throat hurts majorly and I can't figure out why.

I'm coming home this weekend. be thankful!!! The SuperBowl is on Sunday!!!! I cannot wait. I'm goin for the Colts but I'm thinking the Bears might just take it.. I don't know. I only like rooting for the winnign team so maybe I'll just stay neutral.
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